What is the first thought that goes through your mind when you hear a group of men laughing? Do you automatically think that it might be about you? And, even though you didn't hear any part of what was laughed about, and your completely away from the group, does that thought still run through your mind? Could it be about me? I was in another room when I heard a group of men laughing tonight, and my first thought was could it be about me. Will there ever come a time when my first thought is, I wonder WHAT they're laughing about, and not IF they're laughing at me? I can deal with the laughter when it IS about me, I just overlook it as men being men. But I can't find a way to excuse my own thinking for assuming that it's always about me. I know it's very seldom something said about me, but still that's where my thoughts go. Will that ever go away? I sure hope so, I don't like this.