Friday, November 14, 2008

Search...

In the past 3yrs that I've been on the Internet, ..ya, I was slow to get here, every now and then I try to find what opened my eyes to my GID. ...Let's go back, let's go back, let's go way on way back when. ...(sorry, I just had to do that!) I was 16, sitting in study hall, thumbing through either a Life, or Look magazine, sometime around a '65 edition. Our school library had a large collection of them so the date may be wrong. I wasn't really paying any attention to it, I was just killing time, when what jumps out at me? An article about two transgendered women that had already went through their SRS. ...HOLY CRAP!!! I had already seen the 'shrink' 4 times when I was 14, and he never said a word that it was even possible to do that. (After he fondled me, I refused to see him or anyone else) The story told of how they felt different all their life, the wearing of female clothing, you know, our stories, my story. After reading it, I knew what I was, who I was. To say it changed my life is an understatement. Living with that knowledge turned out to be, well, my difficult life. And now, 38 years later in my quest to understand myself better, I want to read this article again. You have to understand your past if you want to have a good future. So, I'm searching. If anyone knows of this story, I would like to know the mag. and edition, it seems to hold a great importance to me. Thanks

Stephanie

3 comments:

Gillian said...

I'll bet it was LOOK. I remember that one of the women was getting ready to be married after her transition. There was a picture of her in her wedding gown, which, like just about every other dress at the time, was mini. Was that it?

Stephanie said...

I don't remember a mini dress, and I should since it was my favorite thing to dress in, but a marriage rings a bell. ...An epiphany of sorts. I'll call the school and just see if they archived the collection. I'm sure if they didn't they wish they had as they would be worth quite a bit now!

Gillian said...

I looked around on line, just to see if there were any traces. A copy of LOOK from that period is going for about $13. I wouldn't hold out much hope that your high school has them archived. Their periodicals are probably all digitized or at least on microfilm. You might find a set of LOOK at a university library or maybe at a large library in Little Rock, for example. I'll take a swing by the Pasadena Library and see if they've still got bound editions.

By the way, Hot Springs rocks!